plucky9

So I saw the new pokemon stuff, shame I can't milk it for views since I can't draw anything to save my life. Drawing Wicke would probably only gets me like 2 faves just from search results alone compared to the hundreds/thousands other artists got in like 1 hour of reveal PLUS drawing AND coloring.

This just sucks.

Read the last few journals for context.

That moment where you become tired after doing exhausting things, you look at how other people are doing, it just feels so unaccomplishing and isolating that I just want to sleep to make the time fly.

Maybe it's just mundane, too much of a broken record to make much of a difference.

Have you ever looked at the archive of an artist you liked the art of to see if they started off slow just to feel better? then find that they didn't draw bad and in fact been on the site half/75% less long as you?

has anyone else ever seen artists they really like. that you try to be really good then suddenly the spark dies?, just feels a bit bad that you take over 3 hours to draw something and the drawing felt good, but then turns out to be pure garbage, only to be faved by 3 tumblr bots. whilst the original artists you saw 7 years ago got even better since then..

Art communities are probably like that, 10 great artists that eclipses the rest, to the extent that it's pretty easy to find them if you have specific tastes.

Is it even possible to become good at art, i mean I've been doodling random things for years and have seen other artists in their prime draw decently, watching them improve over the years, eventually you get by alright thinking your stuff is improving and alright, eventually you might even drop out due to unforeseeable conditions.

I've drawn art in the past, and even wrote a story or 2, it wasn't until seeing requests filled out on a board at extremely fast times with decent details convinced me to get myself a tablet, eventually i start to adapt to SAI, but my artwork just didn't improve, i literally got an art morgue full of malformed shapes and bad attempts at tracing things for testing and countless "scribblenaut"-jointed* MAWILE, seriously, if i can't do something that vaguely look human right, that basically kills off everything.....which is a shame considering Mawile is basically some sort of pointy-chinned alien-bottle with a venus flytrap on the back of it's head, paddle arms attached to the neck and a waistless torso-legs....

Probably not as popular as anyone, maybe a few of those 7 watchers might have been due to interests they shared with the art i favorite, unsure, it just feels bad discovering that you went through your life without picking up any creative talents, even coin rolling is difficult as hell.

Think i decided not to pop inside people's streams anymore, since it just turns into me simply looking at people, seeing how they tick and venting out, surely anyone else had a dream about something, but they can't really express it well even with writing.

Plus i don't want to turn into one of those lame artists who uses Hot tags (like fetish or Latex) just for real life pictures of posed dolls, or screenshots taken in Gary's Mod with Pokemon Models taken from X/Y (in the future) then sticking badly-translated-into-English TG fiction about 'permanent bologna noses', sorry for that outburst, everything feels so pent up and frustrating right now.

* Scribblenaut-jointed, basically a term i invented for art that takes up like 50 layers just for colors, joints, clothes and basically ANY folds that goes in front of stuff, which also includes tufts of hair that's attached to back hair, but is in front of stuff like hats.